(A)
I smiled, looked cold and everyone around you, it is a smile in the hysteria, the intersection of the two extremes.
I have forgotten how to cry.
A person sitting in the corner, I leaned impassively cold walls, learn the only thing working in the heat of hot tea.
watching the crowd laughing, still smiling, I am sad that no one noticed.
(b )
keep the blood pouring from a wound in hand, I forget the pain, any fresh blood drops to fall on the floor. Suddenly, I found myself in the blood is not bright red, it's the same color and loneliness . I have forgotten the color of loneliness.
opened the door, I smell the breath of winter, and my heart just will not hibernate in the cold, naked heart is torn, pain to numbness, loss of feeling.
(c)
lonely and I the same country, and this may be fate. in the dark I lit a candle, dim the flame gently beating, it is still a heartbeat. However, to make candles, darkness engulfed me, no resistance, no struggle.
I have already got used to darkness.
walk alone, deserted street late at night, my world is still only my own, quietly spread of cold and helpless, I am associating with the pain .
(d)
boiled water kept boiling steaming, I stare at it, his thoughts fly away little by little my body.
what I think?
I What can be done?
constantly ask myself, did not answer.
I'm used to questioning their own.
no thought, there is breathing, clear breathing, I can hear my own heart beat . strongly about me, I in the end still alive.
(e)
turn on the computer, I heard a mouse and keyboard in the quiet night issued a clear voice. qq no one. suddenly been asked to be authenticated, in the a column of his self-introduction, I saw a quite reasonable words: and then off the assembly line, close the computer. lying in bed, eyes looking at the ceiling, I keep thinking of that sentence.
original, I have long been accustomed boring.
(VI)
my life meaning, my life is not happy, because the frustration, as ruthless. no goal, in my own unique way of living, live in their own world.
go on the road, do not bother pointing and cold, I'm still calm walked firmly forward, his face still wearing inexplicable smile. a shadow, why should not forget that you also just my passing? think of you, I put away a smile, stopped, looked up at the sky , not blue, is the color of loneliness.
I can not force myself not to think of you.
(VII)
nest on the sofa, rubbing his hands constantly forced the sun *, habitual migraine attack me. On the table stood a glass of ice water and painkillers, I did not touch them, close your eyes, feeling pain gives me the pressure.
I have used to torture yourself.
suddenly felt cold hands warm, turned out to be the hot tears, I thought I had no tears.
(eight)
angels have wings, I did not, so I'm not an angel.
devil magic I did not, so I'm not the devil.
I have is, is helpless, despair and loneliness of freedom.
heart of hope and despair, struggling fiercely, winning is helpless. I have learned to accept helpless, like no choice but to compromise.
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drawback is too good angel, the devil is too evil shortcomings, my faults are too weak.
(IX)
gently close your eyes hard, greedy to breathe the air without you. is freedom? or miss? I can not answer yourself, you had not so much thin air.
I have learned to adapt to the cold thin air.
laugh , crying, fights, uttered, and now I need to, just indifference.
(ten)
sunshine through the window, gently warming my body. opened his eyes, with my hand out block the glare of light, cast a quilt, I am going to continue to dream of being interrupted.
dream once awakened can not go on. fretfully sat up in bed, his hands supporting his head, my hair hanging down disorderly . wake up. I shook his head with a wry smile to myself with despair to accept the reality, no sense to meet the new day.
I am accustomed to life in stone.
(XI)
I am. second)
wind in my hair, I do not care, slowly walk the streets in the winter. I numb to move forward a little fuzzy, vaguely see you on my front step forward , but you farther and farther away from me.
Pinmingdexiang you rush I know you're in my eyes disappear. stopped breathing breathing heavily, I began to laugh, laugh at my silly, laugh at myself stupidity.
(thirteen)
room filled with books, the whole table, I sat in front of piles of books, and sighed. silent for a moment, I suddenly stood up, reaching out to those that had boring people breaking book, forced to fire in the wall and threw it, and then threw himself on the bed heavily.
a long time, I got up to book a one who picked up again on the table, helpless smiled, buried in piles of their own.
(fourth)
lying on the table, I buried my face deep arms, tears flooded out so unexpectedly. I keep doing Take a deep breath in an attempt to mend the heart of the fluctuations, but I can not help myself.
(fifth)
I removed the false smile, put a tired face. still sentimentally attached to you, but I learned to hide.
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my life is always calm, only when the wave is like your tears.
temptation, we calculated the distance in light years
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